Saturday, March 21, 2009

being a good waiter






















the english language is fun because, although it can be cumbersome and arrhythmic sometimes, the poetry of it allows us to use the same word in one statement to mean two very different things, allowing the idea itself to work on a number of levels.

take the rather familiar Christian phrase waiting on the Lord.

typically, we think of this a having something to do with being patient and faithful- of enduring the passing of time in order to see something that we hope for come to realization in Christ. scripture resonates with this one... just go to biblegateway or youversion and type in a search on 'how long Lord.' there's lots there.

how long, Lord?

the psalms and many of the prophets resonate with this cry because it is the cry of humanity against the established order on fallen planet earth which is the order that comes to be when the oppressor is given what appears to be full reign:

in his book Forgotten Ways, alan hirsch defines 'movement' as:

a group of people organized for, ideologically motivated by, and committed to a purpose which implements some form of personal or social change; who are actively engaged in the recruitment of others; and whose influence is spreading in opposition to the established order within which it originated… (Hirsch, p191)

and so we find ourselves engaged in a movement, a coup d'etat to overthrow the established order through the uniting and serving together of a forgiven, grace and mercy-receiving people. often, in our movement and our passion for the cause of Christ, we act rashly, enacting our own activistic response to the 'how long, Lord?' question.

kinda like when moses kills the guy for beating up a hebrew slave.

God's response to moses' well-intentioned violence, his righteous rebellion on the service road, is to give him forty years in exile to think about it... forty years in the wilderness to prepare for forty years in the wilderness. eventually, moses comes to the place where he is able to truthfully say 'i can wait.'

however, typically we would refer to all this as waiting (or not waiting) FOR the Lord.
how does one wait ON God?

i worked as a waiter at a restaurant during high school. it was a painful experience for two very different reasons. the first one is easy to talk about, but the second still makes me wince.

this restaurant boasted the best chowder that interior british colombia had to offer. the stuff was, indeed, amazing: rich and tasty but with a consistency to rival tar. this stuff was THICK. anyway, people would come from all over town to enjoy a bowl of this famous chowder and i was there to bring it to them in a timely fashion, with my short-sleeved shirt well pressed and my orange bowtie (with, of course, matching mini-apron like the kind you wear when you're working a bingo) straight and symmetrical. as long as you adhered to a few basic rules, the tips came rolling in tax free- this was, of course, what the apron was for.

in any event, it was a beautiful arrangement until that one evening when i stepped on something rather slippery, lying facedown on one of the hardwood steps. the chowder flew through the air and yet with gymnastic grace i managed to catch it all, lest it stain the carpet and the cost of cleaning come out of my pay. i hurried into the kitchen with the chowder burning the flesh off of my left arm, stuck my head into a pile of clean bar towels and screamed.

this was, however, not the most painful event- especially since it only occured once. the most painful of my food service industry experiences came regularly- once a week, in fact.

every sunday night the Christians would come in and take over the restaurant, singing Grace before gracelessly demanding record-breaking service, leaving an Oh By The Way, You’re Going to Hell tract as a tip…

yeah. that was way more painful and the scars still haven't healed.

see, everyone knew that i was one of them- that i was the churchgoing type- and so i was guilty by association. so was Jesus.

no, his scars still haven't healed either.

see the thing about this is that Jesus' scars are found on the hearts of others, for he bore all of the pain of humanity on behalf of us all. every time those who lay claim to the salvation afforded regular everyday people through the blood of Christ, they do an unpardonably poor job of representing Christ, of bearing his name, of loving another and enacting that love, the wounds delivered through these abuses are received by Jesus as well as the other person- and whereas Jesus forgives and saves, others often do not.

these are the things that harden hearts, making it easier and easier for people to reject Christ because Christ's people can be so inward in their focus.

we all make mistakes. we all go down in flames over this or that expression of our seemingly ongoing fallenness, and yet God in his mercy, grace and incomprehensible cosmic patience, continues to forgive us seventy times seven. the challenge before us is to see what needs to be seen and grow closer to and more lovingly involved and engaged with God and humankind as a result of this seeing.

to be good waiters.

what are we waiting through?
what are we waiting for?
who are we waiting on?

Monday, March 9, 2009

drive



recently in an interview, Bono was presented a photograph of himself getting out of a helicopter in the 80's. in the photo, he had that look in his eye, like his whole life was ahead of him to do with as he pleased and it pleased him to try to change the world. the interviewer posed a very simple question:

Q: what would you say to this guy?
A: I’d tell him ‘you’re right.’

that look… is that the look of a younger man? is it the look of one who is too young, passionate, idealistic, and naïve to be cynical? or is it the look of one who’s ready to live the dream?

of late, a bunch of us have been looking at the whole notion of awakening from our slumber to live God’s dream for us… interesting how, sometime between genesis 2 and last night, slumber has moved from being God’s means of recharging us indefinitely for an ongoing creative partnership that was part of the original creation plan to a place where we would hide from the pressing responsibilities of ‘now’ just long enough to be able to face them for the hours between our waking and sleeping… we have gone from life with no end in paradise to just getting through this day without going crazy.

perhaps it has something to do with the disaster that is chronicled in genesis 3 and the aftermath that we read of in 3.17b-19, 23-24…

To Adam he said, "Because you listened to your wife and ate from the tree about which I commanded you, 'You must not eat of it,'
"Cursed is the ground because of you;
through painful toil you will eat of it
all the days of your life.
It will produce thorns and thistles for you,

and you will eat the plants of the field.
By the sweat of your brow
you will eat your food
until you return to the ground,

since from it you were taken;
for dust you are
and to dust you will return."

So the LORD God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.

man and maid back slowly out of the garden, only to see the large metal door of God's vault of infinite blessing slam shut, its large wheel spinning as the security system engages and the two infidels turn to watch the ground harden before their very eyes as the sun sinks slowly out of view.

so as stillness and passivity settle upon the newly accursed ground and the rich fragrance of those evening walks with God gives way to the pungent odor of overripe fruit and burning roadside garbage that comes to characterize our dominion and our domain east of eden, the melancholic chill of adult responsibility grips all of creation.

and over the millennia, we come to recognize it
as the sound and feeling of life
and we accept it as such.

so- so you think you can tell heaven from hell?
blue skies from pain?
can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
a smile from a veil?
do you think you can tell?

did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
hot ashes for trees?
hot air for a cool breeze?
cold comfort for change?
did you exchange a walk-on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

how i wish- how i wish you were here...
we’re two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl year after year
running over the same old ground-
have we found the same old fears?

wish you were here…
(Roger Waters)

but movement is a sign of life
and to be moving is an indicator
not only of life but of health and purpose…

I wanted movement, not a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and a chance to sacrifice myself for my love. I found in myself a superabundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life. (Tolstoy)

perhaps this drive of which tolstoy speaks is what drives a 56 year old woman to swim across the ocean…

SAN JUAN, Puerto Rico — Jennifer Figge pressed her toes into the Caribbean sand, exhilarated and exhausted as she touched land this week for the first time in almost a month.

Reaching a beach in Trinidad, she became the first woman on record to swim across the Atlantic Ocean _ a dream she'd had since the early 1960s, when a stormy trans-Atlantic flight got her thinking she could don a life vest and swim the rest of the way if needed.

The 56-year-old left the Cape Verde Islands off Africa's western coast on Jan. 12, battling waves of up to 30 feet (9 meters) and strong winds.

perhaps this is what drives a 75 year old man like abram in genesis 12 to leave house and home and all that is familiar to undertake a journey to a land that, at that stage, remained a mere promise by an invisible God (Hirsch)

oh but wait a minute.

in the abram story, the drive isn't simply a nomadic restlessness that prompts a man to resume the journey begun by his father a generation earlier. there's a spiritual element that must be seen as far more significant than just basic human wanderlust.

it probably has less in common with the hunger for adventure confessed by tolstoy than with that drive that, in mark 1.9-13, compels a young 30-something messiah, newly anointed by God, into the wilderness to face his greatest fears and insecurities before engaging in a ministry that would change the world forever, bringing healing to the sick, new life to those dead, and new freedom to those in bondage, restoring that look in our eye and that eternal orientation to our perspective…

in a recent talk, erwin mcmanus challenged the crowd
with a rather simple question:

If your greatest dream were to become reality, would the word be a better place?